“Don’t open this,” he told me, setting a small cardboard box on the table and giving me a pointed look. “I mean it.”
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I stared at him over the rim of my coffee mug, mid-sip. “Why?”
“Just don’t.” He leaned over the table to press a kiss to my forehead. “Love you,” he called over his shoulder, heading out the door.
“Love you,” I murmured, my mug still hovering next to my mouth, my eyes fixed on the box he had left behind.
It sat quietly as I cleared away the breakfast dishes and put a roast in the oven for dinner. I drummed my fingers on the table, eyeing it. “What am I supposed to do with you then?”
But it didn’t answer. With a sigh, I snatched my phone and sent him a quick text, hoping to catch him walking into the office from his car.
Can I at least move it? It’s in my way.
Ya. Just don’t open it. XO
I gingerly picked it up, surprised by how light it was, and relocated it into the cabinet in the living room next to a stack of photo albums. Its place on the table was soon filled with folders and over-flowing binders, a sea of papers speckled with bright sticky notes. I was trying to pick flower arrangements for the museum opening next month, but all I could think about was that box. Why would he tell me not to open it? I couldn’t think of anything he wouldn’t want me to see unless it was for me. I slammed down the list of flower samples I’d been staring at sightlessly and glared at the TV cabinet, grabbing my phone again.
Are you going to tell me what’s inside?
It was too small to be the shoes I wanted and too big to be jewelry, besides it was way too light for anything like that. This was going to drive me insane.
I decided on red carnations for the museum and had moved on to silent auction details when my phone went off.
I set my phone aside and made myself focus. It was just a box, but it nagged at me like an itch I couldn’t reach, my mind determined to deduce what was inside.
When I unfurled my yoga mat several hours later, it was still there, staring at me through the glass doors as I dove into downward dog and tried unsuccessfully to center my errant thoughts. I had just reached a halfway meditative state and convinced myself that it must be tickets to the show we had been wanting to see, when my phone rang loudly. The caterers with yet another menu plan. I paced angrily in the living room, arguing with them that soup was not a finger food.
“Remind me never to use them again,” I snapped at the box as I angrily hung up.
It stared back passively, taunting me. I snatched it out of the cabinet and set it on the coffee table, lowering myself onto the couch. It wasn’t taped closed. I could open it without him knowing and then put it back and act surprised when he showed me the tickets. It had to be tickets... But who put tickets in a box?! He’d never be the wiser, but he’d told me not to. I shoved it back into the cabinet and tried to push it from my mind, turning back to the museum opening and my half-eaten sandwich.
I had just finished calling prospective donors for the auction when my phone pinged with a text from him.
Have to work late again :( I’ll bring pizza.
I made roast. It’ll be ready when u get home.
You’re the best. Luv u.
I sent him a kissy face emoji before putting away my papers. I wasn’t surprised. He’d been working late more nights than not. I turned down the heat on the oven and collapsed onto the couch to revise the floor plans. The box was still there. If it were a gift, he would have hidden it. Unless he was afraid I’d find it and open it accidentally. But then why not take it to work with him? I grabbed my phone again.
Is it for me?
He didn’t answer. I finished the floor plans, folded the laundry, and revised the invoice for the museum. I finally set work aside, tired of waiting for him. My phone pinged.
I glared at the box still sitting quietly in the cabinet. He could be home anytime between now and midnight, and I was sick of waiting. I settled cross-legged on the floor, the box on my lap, and unwove the cardboard flaps, careful not to bend them. “What the hell?”
It was empty.
That only confused me more! Why would he not want me to open an empty box?! I almost texted him, but he was already overwhelmed with work, and then I’d be admitting I’d done what he told me not to. After all day of imagining the exciting things it might contain, I felt as empty as the box. This was what he got me? Nothing? I hurriedly folded it closed and crammed it back into the cabinet, trying to ignore the tug of hurt intensified by an empty house.
I was watching TV when I heard his car pull up outside, and headlights flashed across the living room ceiling. He trudged inside, dropping his bag on the floor and collapsing into a chair at the table.
“Long day?” I set a steaming plate in front of him that I’d been keeping warm for the past hour.
He nodded tiredly. We ate in silence cut only by the sound of silverware on china and his occasional yawn. We had still barely spoken when we cleared the dishes away, him putting them in the dishwasher while I maneuvered the last of the roast into a glass dish.
“I put your box in the cabinet,” I said, stuffing a wet towel back over the oven handle.
He eyed me for a minute, his wet hands resting on the edge of the sink. “You opened it.”
“You know what?” I slammed the fridge door. “Ya, I did! Why would you give me an empty box?!”
“Because I knew you wouldn’t be able to resist looking.”
I gaped at him, speechless. He laughed, looping his arms around me and tugging me against him. “Drove you crazy, didn’t it? You’re too curious for your own good. Schrodinger would’ve hated you.”
“So you did this to torture me?”
His smile faded. “I can’t be here to tease you. I didn’t want you to forget about me.”
I couldn’t deny it had worked; I’d been thinking about him all day and texting him way more than usual, even if it was to bug him about a box. Normally, I was so engrossed in work I barely noticed how late he came home.
“You know, I was starting to wonder who the man was in all these framed pictures,” I said, smiling ruefully at him.
He smiled back tiredly, and for the first time I noticed the dark circles under his eyes. He kissed my cheek and trudged into the living room, collapsing on the couch with a sigh and throwing his feet up on the coffee table, his head sagging back onto the cushions. His cellphone was sitting forgotten on the table, and I snagged it, ducking into the kitchen.
I typed out a hasty message before joining him on the couch, tossing him his phone and grabbing the remote. “Let’s watch a movie.”
“I can’t, babe,” he said apologetically. “I work in the morning.”
“Don’t you know? You’re sick.”
He stared at me. “What?”
“I mean, it’s not a surprise after all those long hours at the office. That wreaks havoc on the immune system. I’m thinking the flu, but I’m open to suggestions.”
His phone went off, and he stared at the message that had popped up on the screen. “You texted my boss?”
“Well, you weren’t going to do it,” I murmured. “You need a day off.”
I watched him nervously as he stared at the text, but he wrapped an arm around my shoulders and buried his face in my hair. “I love you.”
“So, what will it be? Something new or just Jurassic Park for the fiftieth time.”
“Definitely Jurassic Park,” he murmured, sniffing and blinking intently.
We curled up on the couch, and he fell asleep with his cheek on my hair before the dinosaurs even showed up. A sliver of cardboard peeked out of the cabinet at me, and I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him a little closer. I was wrong about that box. Sometimes nothing is the best gift you can give.